3 years ago tonight...

Three years ago tonight:

-I was waiting on a little angel to come.

-I was going for a walk with my mom.

-I was talking on the phone with a excited friend anticipating news of a new little one.

- I was sitting on the couch with my mom and Luke feeling her move for the last time that I can remember.

Three years ago tonight:

-My heart didn't know any tragedy.

-I went to bed with a whole heart, not knowing that the next day it would be broke in two.

1st born in 1st grade

All ready for 1st grade.
Dropping him off for his 1st day.

Meeting his teacher the night before

Standing below his name and the wall of all his classmates

Luke's school

So I dropped Luke off for his 1st day of 1st grade today. He was so excited and has been counting down the days for awhile now. We had fun getting ready for school this year. We went shopping and got him some new clothes and shoes for school. We got all his needed school supplies. Last night we went to the school for the "meet and greet." He got to met his teacher and see his classroom and also check out the class list of who is in his class this year. He found a couple of familiar names from kids that were in his Kindergarten class, so he was excited about that. We checked out the classroom and he even has his own desk this year!!!! Very cool!!! We got up early this morning and got him ready for his first day. I packed him his lunch and put a little note inside for good luck on his first day and off he went. He will be home in about 2 hours now and i am excited to hear how his first day was. Although i did already get a call from the school double checking that I was picking Luke up. They said they asked him and he didn't know how he was getting home. Even though we went over it several time and I showed him where I would pick him up....first day jitters I guess. I am sure by the end of the week he will have it all down.

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With Luke starting 1st grade it has brought on many thoughts and emotions for me that I was totally NOT expecting. As the first day got closer i started thinking about the new schedule that was going to be starting and it made me realize how much time he was going to be away from me. Each school day is 7hrs long..that's 35 hours a week. I have never usually been away from him for more than a few hours at a time. Pre-school and Kindergarten were only half day..so needless to say this is quite a change for me and him. I am sure he is handling it just fine, but me not so much. I keep thinking where did the past 6 years go...what happen to my little boy. I look at Drew and it seem just like yesterday that Luke was that age. I think back to when we was Drew's age and it was just me and Luke together all day everyday. He is my first born and those first few years are so special and I am thankful that I was able to be a stay at home mom with him and make all those wonderful memories. Cause that is something I will never get back. I can't explain it, but my heart just feels sad today that he is growing up so fast. You don't get that time back when they are little and from here on out he will spend a majority of his awake time somewhere else. I am thankful for the summers though, and is it crazy to say that I can't wait for next summer already...lol.

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I know this is all an adjustment time for him and probably mostly me, and I will get used to it soon, but I miss my little boy. But it is not about quantity of time, but quality time right? I am sure I will really enjoy and look forward to the hours that we do get to spend together. It will also be nice for Drew to have the "one on one" time with me. The first born children get alot of that, so it will be good for Drew to have the extra attention too. It is just hard letting go and watching your child move on to a new chapter in their life and it kinda feels like in too short amount of time he will be all grown up and out on his own. I know that is years down the road, but at one time so was going to school. I just pray that I can soak in all the time with my boys and provide a wonderful childhood for them.

Me and my little man.

Remembering days that were just yesterday.

He has given me so much joy in the past 6 years!

I love you Luke!

Picnic at the Lake

Happy boys having some lunch!
Perfect day for a picnic

Hungry boys!!!

Throwing rocks..

Testing the water.

Luke loves the water!

Drew and Joe taking a break up in the shade!

We love being able to drive just 5 minutes to get to this lake. It is fun if we just want to go for a drive, or hang out for a little bit, or go have a picnic!!

Swim Lessons

Back floats!
Kickboards!!

My mom was here for a few days during Luke's lessons.

Hey I can float!

His lesson was from 9am-9:30am every morning..so ya he does look like he just woke up...lol

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So Luke in swim lessons again this summer. This is his second summer doing it. Last summer he was in Level 1 and did well, but we put him in Level 1 again this summer as a refresher course. We are not in the water a whole lot, so it takes him a lot time to get warmed up to being in the water. He loves the water, but just not the whole putting his face in it part...lol. He has improved so much this summer and I am very proud of him. He has gone from...the first three days of not going under at all-to going under water over 20 times in one lesson (he counted...lol) Tomorrow is his last day of the 2 week session. He is excited cause they get to have a play day. I entered him into the next session that starts on Monday and he will be doing Level 1 again. Now that he is not afraid to go under water he will be able to learn more of the basics better and hopefully next summer he will be ready for Level 2 and not need to repeat Level 1 again.

One Year

Well one year ago this morning we left the place we called home for 5 years. It is hard to believe that a year has passed already. I am not going to lie, it was an emotional time for me. We were leaving behind 5 years of memories and people that we had grown to love. We had lot of good memories and also some really hard times. We had major life changing event happen in our life while we lived there. One with the passing of Lily and then a year later with the birth of Drew. Luke had spent most of his life growning up there...he learned to walk, talk and so much more in this place. It was a good home for us for those 5 years.

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As we left that morning and said goodbye to Colorado I was excited and a little sad at the same time. I was looking forward to the new start in our lives and putting some of the hard times behind us. It has been quite a year for us and I could never have imagined some of the things that have come about since we have been here. We were blessed with a great job for Joe, and a beautiful home for our boys to grown up in. We have made some great friends and continue to get to know people here.

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One thing that i never saw coming is the idea of my mom and her husband moving here. They started talking about it months ago and now it seem like it will be happening before the end of the year. I have not lived by my mom for 6 years. It will be so nice to have them here for us and the boys. Funny how one thing leads to another.

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Although it was a little hard for me to leave behind our life in Colorado and move on from all that we went through there, I can say the past year has been great for me and our whole family and I couldn't be more thankful!

4th of July 2010

Here are a few pictures from our fun filled 4th of July weekend!

Spring time

Well this week it has finally felt like Spring. We had beautiful weather all week and all weekend. So we have been spending a lot of time outside and the boys have been loving it.

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We have been doing quite a bit of yard work, trying to fix up the yard and do some landscaping. The house we bought was a foreclosure and sat empty for a year. The bank watered and mowed the grass/weeds. So we at least had something to work with. But Joe has done a lot of weed killing and some fertilizing and in about a week we will be putting down some new seed in the places that need filled in. We are also working on planting some trees in the yard. We are probably the only house on the block that doesn't have ANY trees. We bought one for the front yard this weekend (see pic above with Luke) and we will be getting some sort of nice shade tree for the back yard. We also got some bushes and grass plants to put in the front landscape. We are pretty excited about dressing it up and making it our own.

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The boys have been loving the yard, front and back. The backyard has been awesome. I can let the boys out there and not worry to much about anything happening to them. The sliding glass door is right off of the kitchen so I can always see them really well and keep an eye on them when I am not out there with them. They have been playing with chalk alot and just running around in the grass. They have also had fun out in the front of the house a little too. Luke has been riding his bike quite a bit and playing the neighbor kids across the street.

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We went for a nice walk tonight while Luke road his bike, and it was really peaceful. I also walked to Luke's school this past week for the first time to pick him up. I am hoping we have some more nice days to do that before it gets to hot. It is a good little walk probably about 15 minutes there and 15 back. I enjoy it, but I am sure Luke will get tired of it if I do it everyday. Need to figure out a system to bring his bike with me so he can ride it home.

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Well our first Spring in Idaho has been great so far, seeing all trees and flowers in bloom and working on our own place.